It has been a while since I’ve had the energy to write. I have had a really bad cold for the last two weeks. I know generally a cold sounds like no big deal, and usually they aren’t, but this one has been awful, and I’m still somewhat congested and coughing, although it gets a little better every day. I’m starting to feel semi-human again, one day at a time, and to get some energy back.
I have gradually been able to get back to visiting my favorite parks and natural areas over the past week. Yesterday was a gorgeous, sunny day (we are finally having a few days of sun!!!) and I went out to my favorite park by the Applegate River.
As I sat on the bank, I was inspired to do a simple healing ritual, to help heal this cold and some lingering back pain, as well as to heal some fears and worries. I drew the Womanrunes healing rune (a sun image) in the dirt in front of me. Then I picked up a stone, and imagined pouring my illness, my pain, my worries and fears into the stone. When I felt complete, I threw it as far as I could into the river, and visualized the river carrying all my troubles away.* I then poured water from my water bottle over the rune I had drawn as an offering to the spirits of the land, the river, and to Goddess. It was a simple, impromptu ceremony, but it made me feel connected to the land, to Goddess, and to my magical self, which I have not been feeling much lately.
After my little ceremony, I took a brief walk, and I had the sudden urge to veer off the path to see if there were any shade-loving wildflowers growing in a patch of trees nearby. A few steps off of the path, I looked down and noticed what I thought at first was a cool-looking fallen branch, but when I reached to pick it up I realized it was a deer antler! It has been one of my dreams to find a shed antler (and some shed snakeskin—I’ll have to keep looking for that!), and I almost couldn’t believe it was real when I picked it up. I’ll admit to looking like a nut talking out loud to myself and saying things like, “Holy crap, I don’t believe it!” and “This is SO COOL! Wow!” It is a beautiful antler in perfect condition. I love looking at the scrapes and scratches along the tips and imagining its owner scratching his antlers on a tree, or butting heads with another buck. What a beautiful gift, I am so grateful for it!
The antler now has pride of place on my altar, and I also have the sudden urge to learn more about Elen of the Ways, the antlered Goddess. Her name has been coming to me recently, and after finding the antler, I feel like I need to start learning more about her.
I hope that you are enjoying spring wherever you are! I am so grateful to finally be able to get out and enjoy the sunshine, the wildflowers, and the fresh new leaves that are appearing on the trees right now.
Spring blessings to you all!
*This stone healing ritual was inspired by the article “A Ritual to Banish Fear” by Susan Perry, found in SageWoman magazine, Volume II, Issue #7, Fall 1988. I love the simplicity of it, and often use it to banish fear and worry when I visit the river.